I've no clue how my HIV positive status was spread around and reached the ears of the boss until i see Sean in my office. As the blow of being HIV positive was bad enough, a greater blow came from Sean, my best friend cum colleague. He betrayed me for my post. Realistic world indeed. People goes for the throat, anxious to kick you when you are down. Even best of friends.

I was sacked and replaced instantly by my best friend who turned nemesis. It was AIDS discrimination from the work place. I felt i could still contribute to the company despite my illness but the boss didn't hestitate to sack me. Not even an account on how much money i've helped the company to earn.

My so call buddies who used to fool around and enjoy life with me had all deserted me. I couldn't find a friend who are willing to lend me a listening hear to pour out all my feelings and fears.

After being tested positive for HIV, I got depressed and very lost. I needed a friend whom i can talk to and console me badly. However,

When i got my HIV blood test result. My legs went numb. I can't accept the fact that i was HIV positive. It caught me unawared.

While waiting for my HIV blood test result, i was very anxious. I was praying hard that i would be fine. I couldn't concentrate on work when waiting weeks for the result. The thought of being HIV positive is on my mind. What would happen to me if i get HIV? How am i going to face my father?

Waiting for blood test result.

If i had never sucummb to that moment of lust, i would not have contracted AIDS. I did not have a cap with me at that time and i find it troublesome to go distances to get one. That was the first time i had unprotected casual sex and i lost the gamble with luck. How i wish i can turn back on time and make my choice again. It's the point of no return.

This is a nightmare which i never ever wake up from. Reality haunts.

Three years ago, when i was having some success in my career, people and friends fawn on me. My life was brilliant.